Well, here we are at Fort Carson. We got in last Saturday and checked into a hotel that we were told to go to by the Army (that way they'll re-imburse us for it.) Sunday, nothing is open, so we spent that day being tourists. We took Jamey to a place called Joyous Rides, they have go karts (for different age groups - he liked the one that he could ride with an adult the best. The one for his age group went to slow for him.) After September he'll be able to ride/drive the middle group one, and we think he'll like it better. They also had a couple rides that are usually at the fair, mini golf, and an arcade inside. They had an area for Xander, but he didn't like it that much. We ended up leaving after not being there for very long, and decided one of us would have to take Jamey without Xander. After that we went to Pikes Peak, one of the tallest mountains in Colorado. It is gorgeous, really gorgeous. But scary going up that mountain. Up near the top, there are no guardrails, and I can't tell you how many times I imagined us going off the cliff. I'm so glad I wasn't driving. And, the funny thing is, Jamey slept the whole way up and the whole way down. He did not believe us when we told him we went all the way up. Xander woke up when we got to the top.
The next day (Monday) we went to the housing office. How lucky for us, there was a house available! The day before I went through a paper and was freaking out over how much I was going to have to shell out on deposits and first months rent. So instead of spending gobs of money on that, I've been able to buy curtains, new bed for Thomas & myself (because our King just will not fit in that room. We bought only a matress, boxsprings, and frame for $864, including delivery), a new entertainment center. We still need to buy a tv for the living room, but Thomas couldn't fit both in the car.
The next few days are a blur, I don't really remember what we did. I wrote in a paper journal though, so I'll have to look at it and maybe I'll add stuff here. I dunno. I don't think we did anything super important. We shopped for curtains, entertainment centers, bathroom stuff, all that fun stuff.
Yesterday the movers came with our goods. We were told any time between 8-5 and I was very happy to see that they came around 9. I still have a ton of boxes to go through. I'm so tired of boxes lol. And our computer is going to have to be moved to upstairs, since there just is no room for it where it is. We thought it might work, and it won't. We have to wait for our bed to be delivered first, though.
I am doing ok. I haven't really dealt with my miscarriage, there hasn't been time. Thomas and I have talked on and off and off and on about whether we should try again. Neither of us is opposed to having another (obviously.. as we were happy about being pregnant) .. but .. we wonder if it would be better for us to stop - financially (as in, we could afford more for the two children we already have.), emotionally (could we really be good parents to more than two?) - but when I see a little baby or a pregnant woman, I just tear up.
This has gotten rather long in Notepad, so I'm going to post it.
written by indy1212
January 29, 2005 at 2:00 p.m.